I feel screwed up.

Remember when I said that I’m getting more excited nu every day about the fact that I will meet my boyfriend? Well, I got too excited, because now it seems there is no chance. I feel hopeless. I will try to explain you more or less everything.

As I said before, I am into long distance relationship. Me And my boyfriend want To meet eachother And there is fantastoc chance at the end of July when his mom leave with her husband for two weeks. He told his about me going there And sh disagreed, that is where the problema started. He tried to convince his mom but she still agrees to her opinion. Once we were talking and he spilled out that she said that we wouldn’t have nothing to do, and then he goes and says something like this “I mind of see her point”, at that moment I flipped and replied something I can’t remember. He ended the conversation and I was there just trying To pull myself together. I went To work And the first hour was awful, my back hurt as well as stomach And feet. I think I was in stress. I kept thinking over And over about what is going To happen. I was really devastated And sad. Almost started To cry.

I talked To him today And explained how I feel. To me it sounded that he didn’t care much. I usually believe when he says “I miss you” but this time it seemed fake, or I was just still in a bad mood. Supposedly if he won’t convince his mom we will “think of something”. Time will tell what is going to happen.

I also would like to apologise for the errors I’ve made in this post. I don’t have internet connection so I’m using my sisters iphone.

Inga

Posted Jul 6, 2010. Filed under Boyfriend. 1 comment.